I have a new cat, but its name is not Tabby the cat but rather Meow Meow.

I found meow meow playing beside a busy road. I do not know if i actually kidnapped a kitty or it is an orphan already, the thing is i brought her home.

Leo and us take turns to care for her. On weekdays we take care for her and he takes over on weekends.

She likes to climb and people’s lap and sleep there. She likes human touch and love because she has no mother.

Sometimes she is poo and pee at the right place and sometimes she just like to poo and pee at a whole new different area, so that is where i have to clean the place up with no complains, if not my parents would shoot at me.

She treats leo like her father. She would turn from a sulky bad kitten to a cute bright kitten when she sees her dad which makes us jealous because she spends more time with us but she likes him better. It is unfair, but life is like that. However I am some how like her mother because one day i will be a mother, so I am like a mother now. When it rains, i will hug her and watch tv because she don’t have much to keep her warm.

Other times we would put her in the cage when we need a rest if not she will poo pee some other place. But when we put her in a cage, she will meow like as though she is some animal from a science lab where people torture her.

Then we have to bring her out to make her happy and run around and let her feel as though she is free and tire her out so that when we put her back in the cage, she will sleep rather than freak out.

Most of the time when she sleeps, she sleeps with her eyes open. Then she will start twitching and kicking. During those time i would annouce to Dee that she has entered the realm of dreams.

In the house, besides me and leo, no one really take care of her. Bro likes her, but he only play with her, but he doesn’t clean up her mess. Meanwhile Dee, she likes to watch us play but she doesn’t really touch her because she don’t like the feeling of the kitten claws.

Taking care for her is tiring because since I am on my holidays, i have really nothing much to do, so i spend alot of time on her. i have to keep bringing her water and food, because she doesn’t eat alot at one go. She is like a little kid, she plays then she eat a little bit and play again, then eat again. She only stops eating when she is tired and she falls asleep.

That is when peace come slowly into the house for just a moment or two. Makes us appreaciate a peaceful moment with the kitty in our house.

Doraemon drink!

Hi People! I posted pictures because pictures tells a thousand words is it? Is that the phrase I was refering to? Life has been boring but hectic in a way. I did not do many things which i considered as fun because most of the time I was writing essays. Tons of essays. My lecturer said, “To be a scientist, one has to practice his/her writing skills.” So i think i wrote about 8 essays not including full reports of chemistry and biology. But more to come in the next semester!

Anyway there is this shop recently opened in One Utama The Best Shopping Mall in the Century in the old wing. They sell snacks but they stick it with Doraemon labels. It is so irrisistable, I bought myself a bottle of some grape flavoured drink. But i don’t intend to drink it.

scallops!

Then one of the weekends, we went to Cheras after failing to turn up in a family event because there was a massive jam on MRRII. We simply went to some Thai-Chinese restaurant and they served REAL medium sized scallops! Dee and me were like OMG!! OMG!! OMG!!! because we are cheapskate girls, we seldom get to eat chewy scallops.

Gardenia Twiggies

Above is a picture of Vanilla Ice Cream with Twiggies. Currently it has been my favourite thing to eat when i am hungry. But then it is really fattening and i could taste the fat too. So i stopped eating, but the main reason is because all the twiggies are gone. I ate them all.

Icecreme Dog on the sofa

For the past few months, we don’t get to see our sofa so clean and nice because it would have been covered with hills and hills of clothes. But now we can see ice cream the dog! because we have a new domestic helper and she is really nice! The house is very clean now until the floor shines like stars in the sky.

350?? Formation. Supa.

Last week in University (The place i study does not have a name.), during one of my classes, we were stopped from listening to our lectures for a few minutes to walk to the field to do a formation of the number 350. then we were supposed to shout THREE FIFTY! with our hand raised up similar to what our Father of Independance did when we got our independance. I felt really stupid so i didn’t do it. (Yea so not sporting at all). And they recorded a video of us doing it and they will post it up at http://www.350.org/ But i could not find any video of us posted up yet. If it was posted up, i think i can be spotted easily at number 5 of the 3-5-0, I will be the one standing there doing nothing unlike others who were so enthusiastic about it =D

Carving.

The picture above is about Dee, carving her Linowood not realising Monmon was on her back on a Sunday morning.

Stupid Tabby

This is Tabby our new male feline ‘which’ like to run into the house and end up behind the house staring into the blank air. It is a male, but our other female cats have a higher status in the house living at our front porch. They seem to be bossing him around so he likes to hide here.

Tabby's new bed

He like to sleep on metal stairs because it is cooling. I do not really bug him much becaus he has ticks on his ears and a wounded tail. He also always give me his =.= (emo) face to me.

Finally I would like to end my post with, life in second semester has not been really great for me. Some one told me to stop sulking about it, and it made me sulked even more. Yeah, so like a girl right? I know!

But don’t you feel like is even more interesting if it is filled with sulkiness, bitterness, emptyness, fulfilness, hapiness and contentment? I think it does, so a little bit of sulkiness is ok for me.

Take care everybady!

And Voila! My semestra break has retuerned. i guess i did quite okay this semester. No Cs! just Bs! and my still life andfigure drawings have been up on teh board quite a number of times already. So i guess i am satisfied. hopefully can get a higher gpa this sem.

I had an interesting opening to my semester break. Went to brotha’s convocation! But its expensive. Renaissance Hotel. Had some screening before we could enter. then charmee and me had a short adventure. we went for food hunting! coz we thought we ran out of food so me and char went to other places to look for food for family. but when we got back they bought food already. charmee had the fruit tart which was cold and yumi but she droped her rassP-burry on the table. then i say EAT IT CHAR EAT IT! then she pick it up and eat it. then mama scold! YOU SILLY GIRL! then she cry. and she spit like a lil baby. pui.

then then we saw many people we thought we see before and papa took many many pikcha wif aaron’s supa cool camera. he snapped snapped and snapped. and more snapped. snaped all da way. snap snap snap.

then we took pikcha wif brotha. pikcha here. pikcha there.

then then momma wanna buy some bras. so we went to klcc after that. but only me and momma. so i had to say bye bye to char. bye bye char. and she said bye bye dee.

then i bought some bras coz mama say buy bra. so i bought pieere cardin brand coz its dirt cheap. 3 set including panties for handarad dalla. its so cheap. and branded. branded boobie security system. wiung wiung wiung wiung.

and bought some otehr panties too. panties~ but not the sesi one coz sesi ones will make papa and mama think we fat hau. so its no good. no good. no lace lace. hee. funny. hee. and its expensive too! so no money. no money. but then looking at those verylacey bras and alll, sometimes it makes me wonder will i ever get one of those next time even if i have da money. coz its like bra only amr why need so nice and pretty and expensive. btu you know lar when got money some how u will get the expensive stuff for the fun of it i guess.  its like instead of asking Will i get rich? i ask will i get to wear those bras? but their so friggin expensive its so scary to even walk near them. you know i could juts take them and try them out for fun but its so scary to go near them coz its so pretty. pink and yellow colour wif lacey every where. like u might ter tear one oft the strings and poof. we ahve to buy them! yay~ pink pink

but then so pretty also no use coz i only get to show char and momma. i will say char nice or not? nice hor. then go to momma. momma you see. nice hor. then thats all. then show mon mon too. hmm its only wothr it to show the whole world. post up on internet. but mummi will scold. she will say i not shy. but im not naked so its not somethin really shyable. its liek bikini wif lace.

then i also bought a working suit. full suit. i look professional. hee. coz i need it already wif all da presentations and all. i went shopping for the need and not for the want. so its okay. har har.

now have to go ready my self to eatdina wif leo and kenny wif tehir family. sia me and me a lil scared coz its scary. okie bye bye.

things to do during break.

practise on photoshop eg clean ppl’s pimply face
draw? nah juts a bit only lar
iron bla bla house chroes bla
dunno. sleep. tara
oh ya make my own fonts. if im nto lazy.

tara good bye. sayo bara

So sad how people take thier health for granted. Especially those around me. i find them damn selfish loh. juts because of tehir cravings, they consume everything. It just turns me off to see them eat like that.

then they would start regretting when they suffer from illnesses due to over eating and the worst part is that they feel so damn surpirse to get sick. like wat the hell man. juts to make your self  satisfied you make us feel the pain. and we are teh one who ahve to control your eating. it so ridicolous loh.

and yarh no doubt emails are sending us alot of facts which we do not know whether they are real or not but doenst meant we ahve to ignore all of them. i dun really trust emails but i use them to remind me to keep things in moderation. no maggi mee in the microwave then dun do it so often loh. wats so hard about that? it would hurt to cook it wif the stove once in a while, especially when there’s a maid to help also. is it so hard to just listen and not be so negative about everything you get? if you dun care that you’ll be dying soon, then dun come into my life loh.

i ahve a strong feeling i might get cancer one day. and some times i feel its okay to eat wat i want since its still so vague. even if i die so whaever la. but at times, ill just go for something simple and *not bad for my health* because i still wish it could help me lar.

why are youo denying that you are nto fat? what are you trying to proove? that you are not fat? im not trying to discriminate but i dun like people who deny what they are. fine if you dun like being called fat, but you still know you are over weight arnet you? its not juts the water mass! its because you are over weight tahts why u have excess water inside you!

i know im skinny and mom reminds me about it all the time. i pick my clothes wisely so that it wouldnt enhances my skinny bones. and since ive been so busy and frustrated lately,, getting skinnier is something whihc i really cant avoid. so im too haveing problmes wif my weight especially wif a mom who constantly remind me how thin i am and she does one face when she says it. and im trying to fix it but why arent you? screw wasting money because its juts not worth it! no matter how much food you want save it doenst mean the kids in africa will get it. and i dun understand what do you all mean by ‘finihs all yr food alot of people no food to eat” even if i dun finihs they wont get the food. so why feel bad when u are thinking of keeping a healthy life style?

and since kids are so wealthy buying psps and nintendo dses and wii etc, why bother about all teh food you waste when you dun even bother studying hard and instead so busy playing wif yr psps. most of my sec school friends cant even study until the tertiary level, so why are you buys playing wif online games when u are suppose to be studying?

so its okay to waste your food to be healthy.

Have you ever explored the concept of hypocrisy where you feel everyone around you could be giving you false statement even your close friends. They do it because of the pressure of the society and trying to preserve their good image.

It is like watching House. He thinks every one is lying just to hide the horrible truth.

Someone i know thinks people like to lie and always telling me that i shouldn’t believe things so easily. Our conversation always goes like this.

Me: That guy i know in uni is quite nice. He always talk to me. He is very friendly.
Someone: Are you sure he is that nice? Maybe he is just interested in you.
Me: No la, he has a girlfriend already.
Someone: How sure can you be. Maybe he lied to you so that he can get closer to you when you are off guard.
Me: =.=

Or another conversation

Me: People say pre-marital sex is wrong.
Someone: Yea it is wrong to the society. But the people who said it are the people who are doing it. They just hide it from the people.
Me: Really? How would you know?
Someone: The society is like that. They are hypocrites.
Me: So they lie about almost everything?
Someone: Yea, and you wouldn’t know, even if he/she is your best friend.
Me: …..

Isn’t it interesting or its just another lie to make life seems interesting?

Me: Kennysia from kennysia.com seem to be very free although he is working. He would do so many things just to prepare a post.
Someone: Because he earns alot from his blog that is why he put so much effort?
Me: But he told his readers that he don’t earn much.
Someone: You actually believe what he writes?
Me: Yea why not?
Someone: Most of his post are sponsored by people. He earns alot from it. Char you are so gullible.
Me: =.=

Oh yea, my mom sent me an email few days ago about MJ’s death. In the email, it stated that the current MJ who died was an imposter of the real MJ. And the real MJ died bout 20 years ago. This explains the weird behaviour of MJ for the past few years.

Haha. Really nice story but i find it hard to believe. What do you think?

Actually sometime after being stuck in the house for a long time thinking that the house is the safest place on earth, leaving the house for an evening for a fun filled activity filled with kids irritating me can be a liberating feeling.

I am char.

And i don’t like kids because i don’t know how to interact with them and i treat them like adults or at least same age as me because they use pity to gain what they want.

I think i have hurt more kids than i have eaten rice for the past one year.

Anyway it is always like the kid make use of me so badly that i start to cry, then some one tell me to stop him, then i said “stop!” then the kid stopped, and give me ‘wanna cry’ face, then i look like a cruel person. Then people boo me. something like that.

Then i get the bad character in the fairy tale story when i was supposed to be the princess.

But in the end i just turned out to be the maid picking up balloons and tying them up together and run like a mad girl to make the balloons fly.

in chinese ( i take canto for example) we count like this.
yat, yee, sam, sei, bla bla bla

okay?

but then why only for number 2 (yee/er) we have to say ‘leong/ liang’ when we wanna pick two things etc. why not yee? since other numbers we use the same word as the basic number. why must they modify the two for other usage but not modifying the others? 

get it?

so why?

Last night i slept at 2am. Before i slept i felt pretty calm and peaceful. But just incase i have problems sleeping again, so i took the mantra book and read one time. Though it made no sense to me, i still did it coz char said its pretty peaceful and it does make things feel better. so i read it. I guess i slept well but still woke up at 5 thinking it ws time to go to class or get some work done. So i continued sleeping.

I hate to worry. It makes my day bad. I don’t like to feel anxious, nervous, stressed or tension, because it brings me near to feeling afraid. I dunno why am i so afraid but i am. I am afraid of everything. And this leads to everything i do. I wont say i’m a person who avoids my fear, but given a chance who wouldn’t want to avoid it. I don’t know why but i don’t like almost eveyrone around me. What ever people do, i just feel so negative about them. Hmmm… once again, life sucks. When i dun like the people around me and i feel fear all the time, how am i suppose to live my life. i Dun wish to die yet because i dun see any satisfaction in it too. 

i just want to turn my world around and just be a happy girl.  i dun care if people areound me are feling miserable, i dun care if someone is hurt, i dun care if you need help because i think i am the one who needs help now. when someone is unhappy all the time, dun you think thers a big problem some where? dun come to me and ask if things are alright because obviously things arent. i dun take advices unless you really knwo wat are you talking about, dun crap because yout hink you need to crap because i wont like you even more. sometimes silence works much better than talking rubbish. and listen to me properly before you talk because talking things which are out of teh topic which are irrelevent to wat i feel makes me feel even worst because im listnening to a story teller and not some one who really wants to help me. so talk to the mirror if you wan to tell me stories.

so teh answer is, i will answer im okay if you ask me if im ok or not because i dun want to elaborate and dramatize my life eventhough i feel there is a need to do so because i feel so unheard of. despite the things which i thought i did was significance but no it wasnt i guess. maybe its because after all teh big hoohaa of my deeds i just stood there and waited for a respond so im weird. the fact that ive been writing about the same stuff over and over again proves taht im weird already so im going to continue anyway.

i dun like educators. espcially female ones. i guess they feel so noble about it that they got so cocky and all. you see this is wat i do. i critisize abotu evrything. anyways, they feel so noble about teaching they expect students to do something in return. shouldn’t youa ll just etach for the love of teaching. why ae you denying stupid students when they are stupid and not giving you the right marks. who are you to judge if they didnt study because you werent there to see. why must you put stars on the name list to indicate promising students. how noble can you be when you decrease your not so promising students confidence. maybe they are already at the lowest stage of their teenage life, and the last thing they would want to hear is not being the one you can put your on hopes on. the next day teh student will commit suicide. why must you all expect from your students. why is there a need to exepct something in return. didnt you read all thsoe forwarded emails that its is more meaningful to give than to take?  its all everywhere in my email inbox.  you all should have my email account then. im not talking about thsoe iron fisted lady teachers because since tehy are like that i dun mind. i dun like those nice looking on the out side who show a motherly figure and all. its so deceiving. im so full of rage… i dun like to feel rage its tiring and i cant do much wif it. but its hard to control it. but no one i could talk about it coz everyone is so hypocritical lately. for those who arent, they dun really get waht i mean so i dun bother telling them. and i keep repeating my feelings coz i dun feel people are feeling it. you know juts like to political stuff when u are mad, juts that for me its the social thingy. i dun really botehr about politics. why complain when you know its like that, you ahve to deal wif it la. you already know teh government will always find tehir ways to do tehir stuff so no matter wat yousay u will nv win them, so why bother getting so mad over it. juts get mad but not get too mad. and live wit it coz life is like that. you dun like it then move to anotehr palce but you will still encounter similar stuff.

it is kind of weird that now i am having my holidays but i am always so so SO tired.

It is my second week of holiday, next week will be my third and last week of my holiday which i don’t want it to end because i haven’t rest enough and rejuvanate for my new semester. So i am tired.

Why am i so tired? Well, first it, most of the weekdays i go out. Go out with bf because so seldom can spend time with bf, i only have 3 weeks with him then after that can’t see him for so many months after that, so i wanna spend as much time with him.

Then besides going out with him i have to do house chores because we don’t have a maid, so since i am having my holidays, i become the maid. Wash clothes, hang clothes, iron clothes, wash dishes, throw rubbish, take in the clothes, boil water, then my house really got so many ants i am always wiping here and there just to chase them away. If you think like what is so hard washing clothes right, well i am doing 5 persons clothes, not one.

You know ma, 5 person clothes is alot especially when we frequently change our under wear, so its really a tiring work to hang and dry the underwear. They are small and troublesome. Then right, i got no time to wipe floor because i got no time, so it will only be wiped on the weekends, so right, my feets right, is black black colour. then right, dee’s bf always complain my feet black black so he very fussy when i play on his bed because my feet is black. not black but grey. Then yesterday i saw many dead ants sticking on my grey feet because i stepped on the trail of ants without knowing it .

lazying around or lying on the sofa and watch tv is kind of rare during this holidays lo. so i feel tired.

Having a maid is really fun. And a good hearty meal.

Wow. After reading one of my favourite blog, i felt it was time to say a few things here. Nothing about the poasts i’ve read but it’s time to update my blog. This andrew ho guy is not related to me but i feel so fascinated with his vocab, its so wide bt he claimed that he’s english isn’t that good, or i read wrongly? I’m not too sure about that. Maybe. One thing is that he tends to talk about a little of this and that and surprisingly for the politics bits, i can understand what he tries to say! Because normally i don’t get a single meaning from those political inclined blogs so i don’t like reading them. Hmmm.. and i don’t read news papers anymore because it’s not fun with all the disasters happening and unhappiness of people of wanting to be heard and all. It’s time to except that we don’t get heard and we live with it lar. haha. whatever. why get so angry with all the negative energy. Why keep talking about not using plastic bags when we still use it anyway.

Okay what’s the situation here. You see, char is an environtmentalis in a way. But she stopped being that at the moment ebcause situation changes from time to time. we ran out of maid lately, so we are lacking of plastic bags to thorw rubbish. So lately i’ve been buying stuff and still except plastic bags despite it’s just a piece of bread which i will be eating instantly on the spot so the bag is relaly for no use. but ill bring it around to use it as my tissue paper bag coz ive been having flu lately. then once i get home ill be using it to pack the rubbish too. so screw using rubbish bag at the moment coz we need it. lalala~ lately and lately and lately.

Funny thing you know, i go to an art college but i look forwad to their motivational talk. i don’t need them but i’d like to always think that they are wrong and they are just being one sided. haha. am i in the wrong place? xD My life sucks at the moment coz i’m not happy in all sorts of ways. So ebing negative is what i do. feeding my soul with answers i want. Design is nice but it’s not that nice. im too broing for design but im still going to do it anyways, so boring people will like my boring ideas. at least i still have a market out side. there’s always a market for something, just that peopl tend to focus on the majority.

Oh ya.. cant wait to major. next semester ill be majoring. not to say im looking forward to it but in a way yarh. coz i guess i will feel happier. i ask dad when he was 20 did he experienced such pain in the brain where you feel liek you are experiencing mid life crisis but you are only 20. then he said life is not always happy. which i suddenly agree. then after that i cannot bombard him wif questions anymor coz he was rigth at that time. so em and char got stuck but still feeling unsatified coz we are so unhappy wif our life right now but we don’t feel liek dying. We acknowledge the bloody feeling and trying hard to counter it. it’s like a mathematics equation, the harder it gets the more you hate it but at teh same time you wanan kill it and victory will be ours! like that.

then we got back home and voila! new question! so what if life is always unhappy? how do we make unhappy life happy? that was the main question! haih im bored being an amature phisolopher. yarh it hink about these stuff all da tme and ometimes in the middle of my sleep lets say 3am i would just pop my eyes open and a lif qoute would go thru my mind. then i will tell my self to write it in my blog the next day but i forgot about it. my peak would be the 10 minutes before sleep. sometimes an hour.

oh ya. here is a set of font ive designed. not for viewing pleasuer but its an assigment. its a american bobtail cat style. nah take a look and see.

 okay i suck at print screen. at least you can see the main idea.

i cant imagine how can i be a graphic designer since im not good at these shortcuts and photoshp skills. i choose to blmae my lecturer coz i like to put the blame on people just to think i will feel better. so i blame my lecturer. coz he didnt spoon feed me like my alevels time. but i dont really understand how photoshop works loh. why so many layers. why cant just i copy and paste? why cant the colour be white by juts putting white colour on it? alot of things i did i didn’t knwo why i did that for. no meaning. so i like ilustrator. hee.

oh ya. whats wif people when you tell them that you dun understand? they will ask back “why dun you understand? what do you not undertsnad?” i dun undertsand evrything lar. then they will say “very easy one mar” so easy then you do loh. if so easy then why must i pay for lecturer to teach me woh. hor? i’m always right! haha. if i say i dun get it meaning i dun get it lar. why keep denying that i dun get it. for example i tell you to draw. and you cant. then i ask you why cant you draw? whihc part you cant draw? then of course u will say i just cant draw la! its teh same. so i wont force you to draw coz u dun understand how drawing works. my dad thinks science and some stuff is easy. but its not loh. when i say i dun understand chemistry he ask me why cant i understand. then i say i dun se the big pictre then he say why not. then is say co im stupid. hee

oh ya. it kinda sucks when you know that every where youu go you dun seem to be one of the good ones. like for me… im the only one majoring in advertising n my class lar. bt my lecturer commented ‘wah so many of you actually got future to major in ad such as names, names and names. but im not inside. i try nto to feel anything but if im nto feeling anything you cant see this in this post now~ so.. life sucks huh? xD nobody seem to see some future in me i dunno why. i mean my lecturers lar. you feel kinda demotivated but at the same time you dun feel much pressure. and it kees you humble. hmmm.. im not spectacular but im always in a field of people wantin to be spectacular. im getting very laid back in class now. dun really feel liek mixing around anymore coz everything is just going the opposite way. one guy is afraid of me coz im quiet in class but active in msn. so he’s scared. so go to mummy coz queit girl is scary. boo~

so naive la these people. haih… being wif them everyday is like… you think people are those people you see everyday? if i work partime cleaning houses you also wont know lar. hor? okay… time to go now. bye bye~ hope you all had a great time reading.