wee! new blog again! share ‘housey’ with kor kor Aaron.

’sayang sayang’ kissie kissie!

can say that it feel like i just ‘putus cinta’ although i haven’t been in a relationship before but some how it just feels that way. especially when you put so much ‘feel’ into something and then this fella throw this nuclear bomb right at you. actually right, every time when something is not right, i will try to make it right back because he was the one who always think too much and make his own self unconfortable about minor things. so it takes alot of work and energy to explain to him and help him understand why he feels that way. but after a period of time things got bad again and it just got worst than ever! i also don’t know what else to do anymore that’s why i decided to quit it. not really but at least let my self forget about the whole thing. i don’t blame him at all actually but i don’t really like his attitude lately. way too cold to interact with especially when i am moody lately. i get angry very easily! i finaly saw the whole him! good thing.

it is something like… after reading a book, you know the whole story but you don’t want to think about it right away because it is too tiring. so a few days after reading the book, then only you start to recall the story, interprete it and enjoy the story. some thing like that. so that is basicly what i am doing because i know it is impossible to break a friendship just like that. haha! because both side still care about each other. i know that =) but i want to wait longer because i like taking long breaks from people. that’s me! because getting to know some one very well is very tiring. but i don’t understand how come people can hardly understand me eventhough we are friends for don’t know how long. so far the only one person who knows my thinking pretty well besides char is leonard! because he did many research on me during that 10 days in OB and 3 months after that. how ‘nice’ of him. he was the first person who manage to spot the difference between char and i in just two days! other people take a week or more… twins… what more can you ask for…