I know 3 languages. English, malay and cantonese. The thing is i feel that i am horrible at these 3 languages.

My malay should be perfect actually because i have been studying in a national type school for 11 years which are full of malays and very little chinese studying there. Jadi Bm aku ni sepatutnya sangat terror tau malangnya tidak. Apalah Char Char ni. But maybe because i was in a school full of malays, so i can feel the pressure while speaking in that language. People tend to make fun of my chinese/english slang while i speak malay, so in the end, I speak very little in that language. I only speak malay to my teachers and my malay friends who doesn’t know much english. To others, it is english or I don’t want to talk to you. You bad people. But my writting is good of course but my oral ’sucks’. hehehe.

As for my chinese, I don’t know mandarin. I only know cantonese and it is not even near perfect. I used to have a chinese maid who only speaks in cantonese, so that was the only time i spoke in cantonese everyday for 5 years. But when she left, no more lu. I still watch cantonese dramas, so I understand cantonese conversation very well but the confidence in speaking this language has PUFFED into the clear blue sky. Now when i speak, people laugh at me =.= You tell me, how to speak when people laugh at me leh.

Then my english. English is my best language yet it’s horrible. I still can get confused. But I really like english. It beautiful especially when i hear some of my english teachers talking. It’s like music to my ears. So clear. So sharp. What a beauty. hehehe. I feel like a failure because my favourite language is not as good as most people english. Here is an example sometimes how my english can go really bad. I wanted to tell my tuition teacher how i really liked his classes last year.I was really nervous. I said ” Erm, hi. I …I just want to say that your class is really fun and enjoyful. I really enjoyed it. ” Did you see that?!? I said ENJOYFUL! Is there such word?!? You didn’t know how embarrased I was. Ah sweet memories.