Few weeks ago, i told myself i want to get myself a job. My mom got me a job in her office but got to work until december. Who wants to work until december. haha, i thought of working for just 2 or 3 months only, not 4 or 5 months.

Last week, my dad sent me an email about a volunteering job for Malaysia Nature Society at Belum-Temenggor, Perak. It was just a 4 days voluntering thing. But going to that area is quite hard. Few busses go there. Got to take a taxi from the bus stop to Bandung’s public jetty after the bus ride. But that job suits both of us well. The job was to count hornbills in the jungle (something like that), need to be a person who loves outdoor and jungle, can stand trekking in jungle, able to live in an area with very basic things and more. Sounds so exciting. I love to do it. haha in the end i am at home here. I just don’t like traveling using buses. I get scared. haha.

From that day, i told myself i don’t want to get myself a job. I just want to relax for the 6 months. Getting a job for what? get all stressed up for nothing, which is totally the opposite thing which i want during this break.

Last friday, dee and me went to KLCC. It was about 0945 hours. We just stare at people walking pass us. Most of them were rushing to work, most of them were not there to shop. But the thing was we saw people just rushing pass us. They didn’t notice us but we noticed them. Then i remember many of my friends asked me why i waste my time now, not doing anything? Many of them are in universities, chasing their dreams, trying to run faster than time, trying as fast as possible to finish their degree to earn money..

I have a dream, but i know sometimes when you are too into catching your dreams, once you get there, you feel empty. I don’t want to do that, because i know i love my life more than my dream. My dream is just a way to earn money to survive, which actually meant to eat and survive in this money minded world. People always tell me i should quickly earn money, they sound like i have not much time.

Actully who knows when we will die, it could be tomorrow, or the day after, or you might even live until 100 years old. So nobody knows. I don’t see any reason why should we rush, besides i am only taking a break for 6 months, not like it 2 or 3 years. The goal for this 6 months is to be as happy as possible before i start my uni and study like crazy.

So in the end, i stay home. I read my story books, clean the house, eat, play with my cat, follow my cat around the house, chase my cat around the house, collect rain water when it rains, collect paper to sell to the recycling center so i can get extra pocket money, ask my mom what she wants me to do for her, sms my friend, go online to kill time, greet my mom and dad with a happy face when they come hom from work, enjoy the rest of my day and more. Feels like a young kid once again.

So carefree, so happy, so ‘hang fook’.

So tell me, rush for what?